Why the pain the hate
This fate doesn’t belong to me
covered in these leprous sores
of the curse i ate
why me hate me hold me burn me
stooped in sanity
kiss my profanity
the needle in my vein is
starting to complain
im not feeling anymore
then i look into your wrist
where the NAILS peirced your flesh.
in this tomb i ran to hide
a stone that just won’t roll away
then tomorrow especially today
its damp in here.
damp in here.
in here.
hear.
2 Broken hands. a face full of salt
Lost emotion. in a rock sealed vault
where to nowhere. may never know why
death leads to life. to live is to die
Word in pocket. Uncomfortable leave
How in blindness. am I to believe?
i am a silent scream;
a taste of what could be.
if only to tarry
in that place i once knew-
then there was a shudder
(she left a trace of blue).
to share that opiate
n’ swim in sweet yester’dream
no sleep.
dreamless reality
it’s all a weakness
seepage from a hole laden mind
brittle will
artificially lit darkness
(is it ever really different?)
a vision in the next room
-this one is so blind-
to be alone
to find a home
to hide from omnipresent eyes
all that’s left is day old fears
-(ineedtocrytoday)-
give up give up
don’t ask why – just bow
you live with porcelain sanity
(and this building’s coming down)
once upon a hope was real
now Pharaoh’s hard
im the first-born
and maybe i’ll sleep tomorrow
standing looking watching waiting
for something to fall
more than an anything star
less of who i though you were
something real
joy from the sad
yet nothing from what good and glad
where is the why
when angels cry
and devils feed the destitute eyes
peace for them
and war to us
break this vein
so just one of them can bleed
for all the grace that covers me
i can only fall on my knees
gripping the robe then lost in the crowd
only You know it is my heart
this is my heart I give unto Thee
i can’t hold it any longer,
take it from these unscarred hands
my joy my pain all in vain
if only to have a heart of Your love
where blood and water mix
and flow when pierced by the
pain of the next
i have never hurt
i have never loved
i only want Your hurt
I only want Your love
to bear that tree and not fall down
i want to take Your place
so You wouldn’t have to die
but i am weak only kneel
unable to imagine
all the pain You feel
soul after soul slipping into
dark
oh God take this heart!